Dear You and I..

You always shout and scream and broke my peaceful surroundings
I never really understand what you used to fret about
You carried unbearable pain on your back alone
I never really care about the pain that burdened you
You were a lady with such a bad behaviour
I often think only about your negative side

You act like a 10-years-old kid
You have no patience
You are also very selfish at times
You act whatever you like
You always cling to your past

I never really understand back then
I kinda understand now
I often try to be nice to you
I sometime try to talk to you
I want to hug you every morning

You might have to understand
You have to accept the fact
I can't do everything I wanted to
I don't really have the courage

You and I, we need time to change
I know time will heal everything
You have to give the time, some time
I know everything will be alright
You and I, we need to breathe..

Diary

It's been years since I kept dreaming

If the reason was because I loved him too much

I should have been happy

But it hurts so much

Will this continue forever?

Why am I like this?

I hate it

Tears won't stop flowing

I wrote everything down

I thought that I have feelings for him

Years passed and I realized

The dream that haunts me almost every night

Perhaps it was not love

It was the opposite instead

I did wrong in the past

It was not easy being me

I never really love you

Even from the beginning

It was a false feeling

From the bottom of my heart,

I hope you leave me

Now its time to go through all this.

Lets not see each other

I don't want to see you again

I'm going to live well

I won't look for you anymore

Even in dreams don't look for me.

I wrote it down,

I wrote it big,

"I'm sorry, bye-bye!"

on my diary.....

-Kherin-